miracles and having a great time, but facing my last transfer is
really really sad.
I miss Matsuzaki Shimai so much. She became one of my best friends in
the whole world. It's so funny, because our first impressions of each
other were not good at all! But we both wanted to work hard and to not
regret a minute of our time together. So we talked all the time! We
had open communication and we cooked together, and laughed at
ourselves all the time. She helped me to improve, and she let me know
when I did something that hurt her feelings or was simply selfish. She
also helped me realize my strengths, and encouraged me to continue
working for my dreams. I love her so much, and my heart hurts a lot
now that she's back in Osaka.
At the beginning of my mission, I was certain that I'd have my act
together by last transfer. I thought I'd be a master at working with
members, our investigators would all be golden, and that my Japanese
would be perfect.
It's hard to say, but I'm still making mistakes left and right! I'm
still not completely nailing it. And it's really really really
humbling. But that doesn't matter. Because God doesn't want me to
completely nail it. My best, is sufficient. He sees the work that I'm
doing in Kawasaki, and He is so proud of me, and He desires me to
succeed. He didn't send me here because He knew I'd do it perfectly.
But He sent me here because He knew that this is where I would have
the most chances to grow. My Heavenly Father loves me perfectly, and I
have to keep remembering that as I strive to really work 100% this
We had a lesson with one of our investigators today, and she is so
honest and kind. She told us that she didn't really believe in a God,
and that she thought that after we died, it was simply nothingness. We
were able to testify that the joy we feel in our families is eternal,
and that she will be able to enjoy the same relationships that she's
cultivated and developed after she dies as well. Her eyes lit up! She
was so happy, and at that moment, my heart just felt so full. She is
desiring something more, and she is working for something better in
her life. I really pray that we can continue to be guided by the
Spirit as we teach her and love her.
I love my eternal family, and I'm so grateful that I get to be a
missionary not only to help others have eternal families, but to also
be able to learn how to better love my family. To increase my desire
to serve them and grow with them.
I love you all, and hope that you have a great week! Tell your family
that you love them, and continue to pray to a loving Heavenly Father
who wants to listen. Love you all!! Have a great day!!